“I’m gonna start a revolution from my bed”

If I have learned anything since I started writing this blog earlier this year, it’s ‘don’t look back in anger’.

It gets you no where and at some point you just need to let things go. That is not to say the anger isn’t valid, it’s real, but moving on is an important part of life.

I have had quite a few weird experiences with songs and music in my life, I truly beilive music is magical sometimes…. when just the song you need to hear comes on, or you notice the song playing in the background of a store, and you are like damn, I can relate to that. I get that all the time.

In Iceland last year, with a group of family members, while waiting to see the Northern Lights appear I experienced magic. We had taken one of those group tours, and they tracked the weather and visibility and were pretty good at what they did. I had to download an app to track it too, of course..

We had been waiting in this freezing cold field for hours. We were going on and off the bus to warm up/ have a glass of wine here or there. It was about 2 am, and me and my mom went back on the bus and started annoying 35 other tourists with music playing from my phone. We put on my Dad’s song, “It’s Your World Now,” by the Eagles

and we saw one hell of a show a few minutes later. It could have just been a coincidence, but I think that song had something to do with us seeing magic in the sky that night. (And for the record, everyone’s experience was VERY different, we all talked about what we saw the next day and it turns out two people didn’t even see it in color, but they said it was still cool, weird how different people see different things in the same sky….)

That was my first “magical” experience with a song, and I had another one a few weeks ago. We had been talking about anger alot in my psychology groups at the Ability Lab. It turns out most people with Chronic Pain are angry about stuff. I’ve known I was getting more and more angry, but I couldn’t really figure out why. Stuff. Just. Keeps. Happening.

And not even to just me, to the people around me. To my family members. To people that I used to know. To friends.

Add all of this to all of the pain I am already constantly in, and realizing how much stress can trigger my REALLY bad pain. Something I am working on.

It all lead me to start being pissed off, and THEN add in the Doctors who couldn’t be bothered to actually investigate my symptoms who could’ve killed me…

This song came on a night that I really needed to hear it, and I was never a huge Oasis fan, but this is a good one.

It’s been a crazy few years to say the least. Just realizing why I was mad, and realizing it was normal, gave me a lot of my confidence in myself back. Slowly, it’s coming back. It’s hard when you know what your body is capable of, when you used to dance, and do flip flops, and then realizing your body is never going to get to there again (duh, im also not 17 anymore either), but just realizing you CAN make progress and get a little better…. and a little better … and just keep going….

#ONWARD

Lyrics:

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don’t you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you’d never been
But all the things that you’ve seen
Will slowly fade away
So I start a revolution from my bed
‘Cause you said the brains I had went to my head.
Step outside, summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain’t ever gonna burn my heart out
And so Sally can wait, she knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it’s night or day
But please don’t put your life in the hands
Of a Rock n Roll band
Who’ll throw it all away
I’m gonna start a revolution from my bed
‘Cause you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside ’cause summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
‘Cause you ain’t ever gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait, she knows it’s too late as she’s walking on by
My soul slides away, but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
So Sally can wait, she knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
So Sally can wait
She knows it’s too late as she’s walking on by
My soul slides away
But don’t look back in anger
Don’t look back in anger
I heard you say
At least not today

Songwriters: Noel Gallagher
Don’t Look Back in Anger lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

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