maintain the pain


Yesterday I went back to the AbilityLab for a re-check. I’ve been really nervous for the tests, mostly because it’s hard to tell if you are getting better or worse when you are always in pain no matter what.

I saw improvements with everything!

One of the things I struggle with a lot is strength in my arms. My arms both get pretty weak at times, but my left is bad. Since I left the pain management program I have gone up 7 lbs of grip strength in each arm!

I went in with the mindset that even if I did get weaker, I feel better overall so it would be ok. I didn’t want to get upset if I got weaker, because it’s really hard to tell sometimes. I’m more careful with my arm than I used to be, I avoid certain activities with my left arm, but I am using it more overall in everyday functional things, which is a big improvement.

The gardening for occupational therapy has been great. It gets me outdoors, gets my whole body moving (gently) and I get to see pretty stuff like flowers and birds.

They measure a lot of our progress in how we feel we are doing. Every time I go there I fill out a few pieces of paper answering questions about my functioning, pain, attitude about the pain, sleep, everything.

Everything is better than it was 2 months ago.

Pain level is steady, but getting more manageable. Sticking to my workouts helps a lot. I have a few I do everyday and a few I do a few times a week. I modify what I need to. Playing in the mud instead of using puddy for example. It’s more fun to me anyways.

I got a few new modifications to add. A few of my shoulder movements still trigger really bad pain, so I’m moving those to the floor for stability. My scapulas are ‘winged’ which is not good, but hopefully will continue to get better over time.

I saw 3 different therapists, physical therapy, occupational therapy, and the pain psychologist. As usual they were all awesome. I’m so glad I found this place ❤️



Maintain the Pain – Miranda Lambert 2009

I put a bullet in my radio
Something just hit me funny I don’t know
Just pulled the trigger going down the road
You slammed the door and knocked me off the wire
Been walking lines and you’ve been burning tires
Slow and uneasy ain’t that what you like
It’s insane
It’s in vain
You stay to maintain the pain
I hear your name and man it burns a hole
I swear I hate you but I can’t let go
The kind of damage that you can’t console
It’s all in vain
It’s all insane
I swear you’ll stay
I swear you’ll stay to maintain the pain
It’s all in vain (I hear your name and man it burns a hole)
It’s all insane (I swear I hate you but I can’t let go)
I swear you’ll stay (The kind of damage that you can’t console)
I swear you’ll stay to maintain the pain
Maintain the pain
Songwriters: Miranda Lambert
Maintain the Pain lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

One thought on “maintain the pain

  1. Glad to hear things are getting better 🙂 It’s really cool that you do gardening for OT. I didn’t understand gardening for therapy until I started working on our planters this summer – shoot! It’s hard work. What do you plant?

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