carry on

This has been a really crazy year for me.  If I have learned anything, it is to carry on.  Life might not be what you thought it would look like, I know mine isn’t…. but if you can adapt to the changes, and work on yourself, you can find your own way to live and be happy.  My body told me to slow down this year and listening to it was the best thing I have ever done.    

This song came on my shuffle this morning, and it’s a good message to go into 2019 with. 

my favorite part of the song: 

‘Cause we are 
We are shining stars
We are invincible
We are who we are
On our darkest day
When we’re miles away
So we’ll come, we will find our way home
If you’re lost and alone
Or you’re sinking like a stone
Carry on
May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground and
Carry on

There have been a lot of ups and downs this year, but I know I am moving in the right direction. I’ve been getting healthier, and stronger both mentally and physically.

I was just reviewing my medical records online through Northwestern’s portal, and realized I have 12 doctors there (plus 2 at the Ability Lab, along with a team of PTs, OTs and everyone else). While that is insane, it also gives me a lot of comfort to realize I have finally found doctors who don’t think I am overreacting or exaggerating my symptoms. They believe me and want to help me find answers just as much as I do. 

This year I am coming out with 12ish new diagnoses (still undergoing testing), but I have also gained the knowledge to know enough about these conditions that I am not as scared of my own body. That has been my biggest problem, not understanding what is happening. Doctors who didn’t explain things, then wondered why I ended up in the ER with pain I didn’t understand, that was excrutiating.  No ER visits since May, so that alone is a huge win!!!  

I am still waiting on the results of the genetic testing I had done.  It takes up to 8 weeks to get the results, so halfway through the waiting… my doctors think there is a genetic factor that might explain my fragile blood vessels, and my hypermobility.  Just trying to stay positive, and not google everything it could be (because trust me, I already have).  

In January I will have a few procedures done to look further into my esophagus issues (trouble swallowing, spasms, and regurgitation occasionally)…. more on that to come.  

I am also taking a quick trip to Florida in January, so that will be a nice change of pace!  Me and my new roommate (my mom LOL) are going to stay with some family there for a few days to warm up our bones.   

I hope everyone enjoys their New Year holiday, and thanks for following along and for all of the love and support I have received from EVERYONE this year.  You all mean the world to me.  Cheers to 2019!!!! 


see ya 2018


3 thoughts on “carry on

  1. Wow! You really have had a crazy year. It’s awesome that you stay so positive considering everything you have going on 🙂 Let’s try to get together for coffee some time in 2019 – I’d love to chat blogging and life with you!

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