don’t you worry child


Don’t You Worry Child – Andrew Garcia, Alex G, Andy Lange & Chester See 

I still can’t listen to this song without crying, but it’s good tears, and good memories.  This was released in 2013 and I have had it on my playlist since then … the meaning has changed, and that is what I LOVE about music.  I always loved this song because it was beautiful.  When my Dad passed in 2016, it became a very emotional song for me.

There was a time, I used to look into my father’s eyes
In a happy home, I was a king I had a golden throne
Those days are gone, now the memories are on the wall
I hear the sounds from the places where I was born
Up on the hill across the blue lake
That’s where I had my first heart break
I still remember how it all changed
My father said
Don’t you worry, don’t you worry child
See heaven’s got a plan for you
Don’t you worry, don’t you worry now, yeah
Don’t you worry, don’t you worry child
See heaven’s got a plan for you
Don’t you worry, don’t you worry now, yeah
There was a time, I met a girl of a different kind
We ruled the world,
Thought I’ll never lose her out of sight
We were so young
I think of her now and then
I still hear the songs, reminding me of a friend
Up on the hill across the blue lake
That’s where I had my first heart break
I still remember how it all changed
My father said
Don’t you worry, don’t you worry child
See heaven’s got a plan for you
Don’t you worry, don’t you worry now, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
See heaven’s got a plan for you
Don’t you worry, don’t you worry child
See heaven’s got a plan for you
Don’t you worry, don’t you worry now, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, yeah
Songwriters: Steve Angello / Axel Hedfors / Michel Zitron / Sebastian Ingrosso / John Martin Lindstrom

in bloom


It’s a Nirvana and gardening kind of day

In Bloom
Sell the kids for food
Weather changes moods
Spring is here again
Reproductive glands
He’s the one
Who like all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don’t know what it means
Don’t know what it means
And I say
He’s the one
Who like all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don’t know what it means
Don’t know what it means
And I say yeah
We can have some more
Nature is a whore
Bruises on the fruit
Tender age in bloom
He’s the one
Who like all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don’t know what it means
Don’t know what it means
And I say
He’s the one
Who like all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don’t know what it means
Don’t know what it means
And I say yeah
He’s the one
Who like all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don’t know what it means
Don’t know what it means
And I say
He’s the one
Who like all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don’t know what it means
Don’t know what it means
And I say yeah
Songwriters: Kurt Cobain
In Bloom lyrics © BMG Rights Management

 

#onward

what sarah said

When you end up with mud in your ear, you know it was a good day in the garden 😂🌺🦋

🎵What Sarah Said🎵🎧 Death Cab For Cutie 🎵 2005

#whatareyoulisteningto #deathcab #whatsarahsaid

#butyoudontlooksick #occupationaltherapy #gettingstronger 💪😊

 

What Sarah Said
And it came to me then
That every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes
In the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths
As I said to myself
That I’d already taken too much today
As each descending peak
On the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me
Amongst the vending machines
And year old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It sung like a violent wind
That our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were truth
I would rather loose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around
At all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself
Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous paces bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round
And everyone lifts their head
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die
So who’s gonna watch you die
Songwriters: Benjamin Gibbard / Nicholas Harmer
What Sarah Said lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, BMG Rights Management

my story – part 13 (occupational therapy)

…so far I have made fishing, gardening, nails, hair (dying, cutting, styling, braiding), and anything else I can think of into occupational therapy.   Gardening has been amazing.  I am still learning to pace myself, when I feel good I tend to do way too much.  I am finding a happy medium.

oc·cu·pa·tion·al ther·a·py
noun
noun: occupational therapy
  1. a form of therapy for those recuperating from physical or mental illness that encourages rehabilitation through the performance of activities required in daily life. (dictionary.com)

I am trying to save this tree 

Ho Hey, The Lumineers 

I walked to the lake in between appointments and got a phone call that the contrast didn’t show up so I needed the scan again. After they had taken out the IV. Had to come back for 2 more IVs and 2 more CTs. Ain’t life grand 😂😂

I gave myself a #ChicagoCubs Manicure 💅

#gocubs

#onward

my story – part 12

Gave myself an, “It’s a Girl!” Manicure…. My sister is due with her 3rd soon.  I think it’s a girl 🙂 

Soso is a Punk Rock Princess 👸 Also, I LOVE ANDREW

Punk rock princess 👑

We’re totally behaving in here!! (John came through the door) 😂😂

Kids and their cell phones 📱

Little Denny 😉



Lemon 🍋

#beardown

red

Some days you are Pippi … and other days you are Ariel 😂❤️

Red — Taylor Swift 2012

Hair (cut, color and style), make-up, nails and flowers by me 🌺 🌸

Outfit by @newforyou

#redhairdontcare #redhair #red #taylorswift #littlemermaid #ariel #pippilongstocking

#butyoudontlooksick #chronicpainawareness #everythinghurts #stillsmiling #occupationaltherapy #ability #healthylife #fitnessmotivation #trainhard #noexcuses #nopainnogain #migrainewarrior #windycitybloggers #midwestbloggers #instagramblogger #gocubs #flythew #cubsnation #chicagoland #everybodyin #chicagogram #whatdoesntkillyoumakesyoustronger #strongerthanyouthink

don’t look back in anger

“I’m gonna start a revolution from my bed”

If I have learned anything since I started writing this blog earlier this year, it’s ‘don’t look back in anger’.

It gets you no where and at some point you just need to let things go. That is not to say the anger isn’t valid, it’s real, but moving on is an important part of life.

I have had quite a few weird experiences with songs and music in my life, I truly beilive music is magical sometimes…. when just the song you need to hear comes on, or you notice the song playing in the background of a store, and you are like damn, I can relate to that. I get that all the time.

In Iceland last year, with a group of family members, while waiting to see the Northern Lights appear I experienced magic. We had taken one of those group tours, and they tracked the weather and visibility and were pretty good at what they did. I had to download an app to track it too, of course..

We had been waiting in this freezing cold field for hours. We were going on and off the bus to warm up/ have a glass of wine here or there. It was about 2 am, and me and my mom went back on the bus and started annoying 35 other tourists with music playing from my phone. We put on my Dad’s song, “It’s Your World Now,” by the Eagles and we saw one hell of a show a few minutes later. It could have just been a coincidence, but I think that song had something to do with us seeing magic in the sky that night. (And for the record, everyone’s experience was VERY different, we all talked about what we saw the next day and it turns out two people didn’t even see it in color, but they said it was still cool, weird how different people see different things in the same sky….)

That was my first “magical” experience with a song, and I had another one a few weeks ago. We had been talking about anger alot in my psychology groups at the Ability Lab. It turns out most people with Chronic Pain are angry about stuff. I’ve known I was getting more and more angry, but I couldn’t really figure out why. Stuff. Just. Keeps. Happening.

And not even to just me, to the people around me. To my family members. To people that I used to know. To friends.

Add all of this to all of the pain I am already constantly in, and realizing how much stress can trigger my REALLY bad pain. Something I am working on.

It all lead me to start being pissed off, and THEN add in the Doctors who couldn’t be bothered to actually investigate my symptoms who could’ve killed me…

This song came on a night that I really needed to hear it, and I was never a huge Oasis fan, but this is a good one.

It’s been a crazy few years to say the least. Just realizing why I was mad, and realizing it was normal, gave me a lot of my confidence in myself back. Slowly, it’s coming back. It’s hard when you know what your body is capable of, when you used to dance, and do flip flops, and then realizing your body is never going to get to there again (duh, im also not 17 anymore either), but just realizing you CAN make progress and get a little better…. and a little better … and just keep going….

#ONWARD

Lyrics:

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don’t you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you’d never been
But all the things that you’ve seen
Will slowly fade away
So I start a revolution from my bed
‘Cause you said the brains I had went to my head.
Step outside, summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain’t ever gonna burn my heart out
And so Sally can wait, she knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it’s night or day
But please don’t put your life in the hands
Of a Rock n Roll band
Who’ll throw it all away
I’m gonna start a revolution from my bed
‘Cause you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside ’cause summertime’s in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
‘Cause you ain’t ever gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can wait, she knows it’s too late as she’s walking on by
My soul slides away, but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
So Sally can wait, she knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don’t look back in anger I heard you say
So Sally can wait
She knows it’s too late as she’s walking on by
My soul slides away
But don’t look back in anger
Don’t look back in anger
I heard you say
At least not today

Songwriters: Noel Gallagher
Don’t Look Back in Anger lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

my story – part 9

… he never came back from Copperhead Road — Steve Earle

….that’s just the way I am 🙂 – Charlie Puth ❤️❤️❤️❤️

My new cat Javy Baez #allstar

He followed me halfway around the block 😹😹😹😹

This is what my playlist looks like for 30 min 😂 …. I use YouTube because it learns what you like, then makes you awesome playlists.

Funfetti !! 😊😊❤️❤️

Welcome back Kris !!!!!!! ⚾️⚾️⚾️⚾️⚾️⚾️⚾️

I think I figured out where Javy lives. He has a giant pit bull big brother named Bruno 😂… I name all the animals. I blame my mother.

#gardeningwithsnoop

 

Part 10 — >

Start from the beginning of “My Story” 

S.O.B.

🎶🎵 S.O.B. 🎶 The Night Sweats & Nathaniel Rateliff 🎶 2015 🎶 📸 credit: Jack Ireland 🇨🇦 This song is about someone being delusional from alcohol withdrawal. It’s a good song, with a bit of a twisted meaning when you listen to it (the writer says it was a joke😂).

Just Fishin’ 🎣

4th of July in the North Woods of Wisconsin.  We caught a bunch of fish and had a great time.  I am sure sore today, but it was a great use of what I learned in OT!  Body mechanics, pacing, patience, grip, and luckily I only caught a few little guys, so I was able to reel them in myself.

🐟🐠🎣

I Can Hear Music 👂

🎵🎶I Can Hear Music The Beach Boys 🎶🎵 1969 — Proprioception. We spoke about this a lot at the @abilitylab It is defined on Dictionary.com as, “The unconscious perception of movement and spatial orientation arising from stimuli within the body itself. In humans, these stimuli are detected by nerves within the body itself, as well as by the semicircular canals of the inner ear.” I am doing this through the Mirror Therapy I wrote about previously, and just by paying more attention to my senses in general. So take off your shoes and feel the earth 🌏 🇺🇸 4th of July Pedicure is ready to go, thanks Mom #musicistheanswer #whatareyoulisteningto #4thofjuly #flagdaybaby #proprioception #icanhearmusic #thebeachboys