Sometime you just gotta go for it. That was how my most recent hospital stay ended up, and it worked out well and I am feeling very optimistic about feeling better.
It has been a bumpy road to get here, but I had a long heart to heart with one of my Doctors (one of the Neurologists) while I was there this week and just voiced all my concerns and issues, and how miserable I have been (pain wise), and while she seemed like at first she was not going to be able to do anything to help, she ended up going way out of her way to help, and that gives me a glimmer of hope that there are still some people out there trying to help 🙂 I don’t really like people feeling bad for me, so I tend to downplay my issues, but sometimes I gotta just tell it all, ugly crying and all….
Basically, she got a Pain Management doctor come to see me in the hospital. No one seems to belive how much pain I am in, and the medication they have been giving me has not helped. Note: I feel like they don’t belive me, but I think it is mostly Doctors being scared to prescribe medications, because I have NEVER had so much trouble in 8 years of dealing with pain. The medication I was taking makes me tired, and crabby but doesn’t do much for the pain. Well, after talking with the Pain Management doctor at the hospital, my doctor (the Neurologist) called my pain management doctor to give her the recommendations. It’s all really confusing, and somewhere along the line there was definitely some miscommunication, but my pain management doctor did end up prescribing me something that seems to be helping more so far! 🙂
Also, next week I will start seeing someone at the Shirley Ryan Ability Lab. My Neurology team referred me there, since I am having so much trouble getting this pain under control. This is the old RIC in downtown Chicago, and it is supposed to be a FANTASTIC place that I know of at least 3 people personally who they have helped, and I am sure I will hear of more now that I am going there. I am really excited, as I think they will help me more than anyone else has been able to 🙂
So while this hospital stay was still pretty terrible, I came out with a few good things to look forward to, and more hope that there are Doctors who will help 🙂
**The song is Machine Gun Kelly feat. James Arthur ‘Go For Broke’ it fits with this week 🙂
I’m an INFJ. I feel like that explains a lot about me. If you aren’t familiar, it’s a personality type. There are 16 different personality types under the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI). I’ve always known I was a little different, but I came to find out I am ever rarer than I ever knew! Only about 1% of the population are INFJ, so if you know me and think I’m a little different but couldn’t pinpoint it, here you go 🙂 I always thought so too!
I just learned about personality types last year and it has helped me learn a lot about myself, and why I do the things I do. If you have never taken the test before, take it here…MBTI Test and if anyone else comes up INFJ, tell me!! I suspect a few family members (especially my Dad’s side, the Gaucks) are also INFJs and probably my Dad before he passed away also, or at least something similar. I think my Moms side (the Andersons) are a more Extraverted bunch, so they are probably E -Extravert something. Either way if you take it, let me know what you got!
Information: Do you prefer to focus on the basic information you take in or do you prefer to interpret and add meaning? This is called Sensing (S) or Intuition (N).
Decisions: When making decisions, do you prefer to first look at logic and consistency or first look at the people and special circumstances? This is called Thinking (T) or Feeling (F).
Structure: In dealing with the outside world, do you prefer to get things decided or do you prefer to stay open to new information and options? This is called Judging (J) or Perceiving (P).
The test asks a bunch of questions based on Carl Jung’s Psychological Theories from the 1920-1950s and then tells you your personality type based on your answers.
I find all of this to be so interesting because my personality type matches me so spot on.
I’m not sure if I took this test when I was 22 if I would’ve gotten the same results, but after my accident I became much more Introverted, probably because I was forced to. I like being around people, but I need my alone time or I am physically and mentally exhausted. I recharge by sleeping and by spending time alone reading or listening to music. These are key Introvert traits.
Some of the other traits that I relate to are enjoying/recharging from alone time, being exhausted being around a lot of people (like needing a day to recover after a big event, but this also has to do with my health so who knows!!), people I don’t know think I’m quiet/shy or mean (and often a bitch/mean due to the Introverted curse ‘Resting Bitch Face’), but I’m usually just quiet when I don’t really know someone. I read somewhere that Introverts are too busy thinking, ALL the time (another Introvert curse, overthinking) and don’t usually pay attention to the expression on their face, this leads to RBF 🤣😂
This isn’t the same as being ‘shy’, because anyone that knows me or has known me a long time will tell you I’m not shy. It just takes me a while to open up a little. Everyone has some degree of both Introversion and Extraversion but mostly we all lean more towards one. I go way towards Introversion, especially when I’m not feeling well!!
The part about decision making is very accurate for me also. We all make decisions based on either logic (T – thinking) or on people and special circumstances (F – feeling). It might not always seem like it, as INFJ’s are pretty misunderstood, but my decisions are almost always made based on feeling and circumstances. This isn’t always a great trait, as it can get me into trouble, but nonetheless, it’s me!
“INFJs often appear quiet, caring and sensitive, and may be found listening attentively to someone else’s ideas or concerns. They are highly perceptive about people and want to help others achieve understanding. INFJs are not afraid of complex personal problems; in fact, they are quite complex themselves, and have a rich inner life that few are privy to. They reflect at length on issues of ethics, and feel things deeply. Because Counselors (The name they call INFJ’s, also called the Advocate on other sites) initially appear so gentle and reserved, they may surprise others with their intensity when one of their values is threatened or called into question. Their calm exterior belies the complexity of their inner worlds.
Because INFJs are such complex people, they may be reluctant to engage with others who might not understand or appreciate them, and can thus be hard to get to know. Although they want to get along with others and support them in their goals, they are fiercely loyal to their own system of values and will not follow others down a path that does not feel authentic to them. When they sense that their values are not being respected, or when their intuition tells them that someone’s intentions are not pure, they are likely to withdraw.”
Add this to my Chronic Illnesses and Pain, and we have a recipe for a homebound geek who watches Star Wars on Friday nights. I really do this, but I don’t want to do it all the time 😂😃 , so know if I am making an effort to get out, to see you, to do anything other than stay in my bed blogging, reading and watching garbage on TV, it takes a huge effort. And if I have not seen you in a while, I am trying to catch up with everyone, but I only have a few good hours a day lately and most of those hours are spent at Doctor visits…. At least I have a lot of free time now !!
The song is Alessia Cara, Here. She is a newer singer and a self described (in this song) Anti-Social Optimist, and an Introvert and I love her! It describes being an Introverted person pretty well! Also… the part about a friend in the kitchen Gossiping about her friends… seriously girls. This is why I cannot be friends with some people any longer. Why cant we all just get along. 😂😬😘
I have a really big variety of music I listen to. I think I pick up a lot of what is around me, and then I listen to it until I know every word and every song LOL, it’s just something I’ve always done! I know the entire Hamilton Soundtrack and I have not even seen the play yet! In fact I can probably sing 10 full musicals start to finish. I think I missed my calling when I was young 🙂 Right now I am obsessed with Cardi B’s new music so expect a blog post for one of those songs soon. My parents listened to everything growing up and all of my family members are big music fans too 🎶 🎵 🎼. My parents went and saw Bob Marley when they started dating 😂😃.
This song is kind of perfect for this week because I stood up to a Doctor yesterday, and while I ended up deciding I’m not going back to him, and told him that, I’m glad I did. I need Doctors I am comfortable with. This song is also great for pretty much everything going on in this country lately 🤣🤣
As someone who sees Doctors almost every day as of lately, I think it is my right as a patient and human to be treated with a little dignity and respect. This Doctor (Primary Care) didn’t want to fill out my forms for work and told me to never bring them back, to give them to my other Doctors. I think maybe I offended him because that was pretty much my only purpose for the visit, but that was all I needed!! I also think he just didn’t want to deal with paperwork. Great, I don’t either!! 😂
I have only seen him twice before so I don’t have many records to transfer and didn’t think he was all that great to begin with, but this is just getting ridiculous to find Doctors that will help. I need the form so I can keep my job and Insurance for my husband and me. No big deal. While this is probably the Doctor’s last priority, it is my first, and I will find someone else I can rely on to help me with paperwork. I have had good Doctors in the past who have been helpful with it, but of course they were unhelpful in other ways. He did fill it out for me, but now I need a new Primary Care Doctor, again 😂. Taking suggestions if anyone has one they love in the Chicago area. If I don’t find one nearby I am just going to transfer everything to Northwestern. I think that will make my life easier, other than the hour it takes to get there, this guy was down the street.
In better news. I love my new Pain Management Doctor and she is working with me, so I will focus on that.